I’ve contemplated about my life and how I have matured through the hardest stages of my life. I’ve never been so proud of myself considering the things I was involved in back in high school.
I enjoyed my high school years. From the labelling, rumours, drama to developing close relationship with wonderful people. I never imagined myself surviving high school.
Now that i’m attending University, things are a lot different. It’s harder to trust and befriend people. It’s also very stressing because of the work load. I haven’t been so anti-social in my life. & this is a part of growing up.
Before Uni, I was worried about being accepted to a undergraduate school. But now that I’m in school, I’m worried about my future and how i’m going to survive.
High school never taught me this. University expects you to be independent. The professors read off of slides, they don’t really teach, so i learn mostly by reading my textbooks. It’s frustrating because exams can sometimes be totally different from how professors prepare you.
But thank god, I AM meeting the GPA requirements.
& everyday when I take the train to school, I always feel so lonely. Although uni is a new way to start fresh, I feel like it’s so hard to trust people since first years are all thirsty people while all the older students are kinda looking for first year DTF girls. Not only that, I only see my boyfriend once every 2 or 3 weeks because of distance and school.
The few friends I’ve made always talked about how they did things to this boy/girl, and i’m just like “yeeeup”.
Since I did more things when I was younger, I grew out of house jams and things like that. Eh, I find my life grey.
sleep, wakeup, commute, school, library, go back home, study, read, sleep. & that’s the cycle everyday.